"How I Feel"

Lately, I've been missing every feeling in my life for so many days. I can't laugh when I'm joyful, and I question whether it's a pleasant moment when I keep a neutral expression. I am unable to cry as I used to in times of grief, but I remain a neutral guy there as well.

I'm never bothered by scary street pranks that give people heart attacks, I don't feel pathetic by looking at someone begging on the streets and I'm not bothered by my blog website, which used to be my therapy session. I am least concerned about my Instagram followers. I'm least concerned about my online presence. 

Even writing this blog makes me feel like I'm wasting my time, but I know it's worthwhile to develop and share a blog with others. The nocturnal walk in the streets was fearless; I wasn't concerned about the dogs or thefts that could occur, nor was I concerned about the shadows that could appear beneath the street lights; it was never the same, and I felt like I wanted to laugh at the shadow. Doesn't make sense, Right! Does it?

But recently, I realized that I've been able to regain my senses by doing some things; I knew it was only a few steps away, but I'm not taking those few steps to make it happen.

It only made me wonder why I changed so dramatically, and what compelled me to do so.

When I sought to address my query, I spoke with my friends, who indicated they were going through a similar moment in life. That was the point where I realized I wasn't alone. They convinced me that it is a part of life that must be experienced, but I choose to avoid it since it prevents me from enjoying the present moment and causes me to continually worry about something that does not even exist in this universe.

I've been through a lot, and I'm still going through a lot, but I know there's someone who stands by my side through my ups and downs and always holds me back from falling into eternal misery. They assist me balance all aspects of my life by using encouraging phrases and including me in their prayers.

If you're dealing with challenges on your own, stay tuned; better days are on the horizon. It feels far away, but you have no idea that it is about to knock on your happy door, so be prepared to open it.

Thanks for Reading.